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In the name of Allah the most gracious, the ever merciful.

Praise be to Allah, the lord of the worlds and peace and blessings be upon the last prophet, Muhammad, sollallahu alaihi wasallam. Alhamdulillahi rabbil álamin for the wonderful gift of life that Allah has presented me, my family and my cirlce of friends. Not forgetting the bountiful rizk and mercy He has showered me this very moment, I thank Allah for everything He has presented me with, truly He is the most merciful.

It's been four weeks since I started working in a school and it has been challenging. Many things have happened and I have, several times, thought of quitting. If it wasn't the fact that the school needed extra hands with the kids, I think I would really rather stay at home, spending time with the family. Anyhow, Allah knows best and therefore, I am, up till now, still teaching in SMK Taman Seraya.

It was not really something to celebrate when I got to know that I was switched to the afternoon session to teach the peralihan class. not that it was something bad or anything, just that I do not have the motivation to teach other subject other than English. ICT was something, but peralihan is another different thing. Some of the kids do not even understand Bahasa Melayu.

I do not know how many times the thought of handing in the letter of resignation crossed my mind. Seriously. I am thinking of this Friday, the letter should at least be finished written. Only then, I can have peace of mind. I cannot do all this. without the prior knowledge, the weight of being the class teacher and managing the exam papers are just too much.

O Allah guide me.