forgive me Allah, for I am weak :(

In the name of Allah the most gracious, the most merciful.

Allah praise be Allah, peace and blessings be upon Muhammad Sallahualaihi wasallam, his family and his companions.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Something is bugging me really bad. I could have done better to not allow this to happen, but ....

It is indeed something I am very disappointed about. Allahu rabbi, it isn't something I would want to happen, I tried to say something, I did, but it just was't good enough. :(

The Prophet said: If one of you sees something evil he should change it with his hand. If he cannot, he should speak out against it, and if he cannot do even that he should at least " detest " it in his heart, this being the weakest form of faith .(Sahih of Muslim).

I do not have anyone to say this but only to Allah. He listens and others don't.

Allah, I am so weak. I can't even do what you have asked me to do. To enjoin goodness and forbid mungkars. I am sorry for I have allowed my sister, my dear friend to go in the path of shaitaan. Allahu Rabbi, I cried in front of you tonight, witness my tears fall down my face when I say I have done nothing to stop my sister, someone I dearly love into the path of shaitaan.

:( :( :(

Sometimes I wish that things are easier. I know this is only one of the tests that Allah had planned to make me stronger in faith.

Do the people think that they will be left to say, "We believe" and they will not be tested? 29:2

Allahu Rabbi, grant me strength to always be able to persevere. Give me the power to stay strong and always clear my eyes to differentiate between the good and the mungkars.

So patiently persevere: for everily the promise of Allah is true: nor let those shake your firmness, who have themselves no certainty of faith.30:60

I'm keeping Your words, my Lord. :'(